Acceptance

I have been rocking a size 14 for about two years and I have not been too happy about it.  The last two times I tried a fitness challenge and diets I wound up gaining weight.  So when I saw the movie City Island starring Andy Garcia, I learned that there are men out there that dig big girls and that's when it happened.  I had an epiphany -- I would never diet again.  Hallelujah -- no more counting calories, writing down everything that I eat, grocery lists of fat free foods and now I can drink alcohol and buffalo wings when I go out.  

So then my quest to learn more about BBW began.  At first I thought the acronym stood for "Big Black Women" then I learned it stood for "Big Beautiful Women."  I have to be honest, I don't really care for the term.  Even though I am big, I don't like to call myself big.  I guess I am really a skinny girl in a fat girl's body.  So it is taking a while for me to accept the body jiggles but with acceptance comes.... you know I really don't know what comes with acceptance but I am open to just about anything.  So, I am not ugly and I am all excited about finding a man that loves all of my curves.  But hold up, I'm not sure if I am really a BBW.  My friends say that I am not a BBW but my sisters agree that my ass is big.  So I am going to do the unthinkable: I am going to post my stats.  Yes, I know, I'm a brave one but I don't give a fuck since this is all for the sake of my self education.  Taking a deep breath before I type this:  I am 5"4" (just a smidgen taller but not sure by how much) and I weigh 186 lbs and I wear a size 14.  So I would like to hear from BBW Admirers.  You tell me, what do you consider to be a BBW.  And all of the BBW ladies out there, I want to hear from you too.  Am I a poser or the real thang?